Love?

     Everyone always asks me "Why are you in a relationship if you don't believe in love?". I tell them two answers. 

1. He doesn't believe in love either.
2. I believe that maybe if you take a negative & another negative it might create a positive. 

     My past isn't the greatest and I can accept that.... However, a bad past does take a toll in effecting your future. I've moved around a lot and I've seen people come and go at a young age, so I don't get attached. My significant other of 6 months is the same way but he just moved back to Iowa and I'm taking it really hard. I had my share of tears, and I find it hard to stop crying which is unusual b/c I don't weep for anyone other than myself... not even for my family. My appetite has changed and I really just want to be in solitude. 

     I've heard of all the side effects that happen to people but I thought it was only exaggerations. I can't stop thinking about him & it's sad really. Everything I look at reminds me of him or of something he said. I don't even believe in love and I'm going through the motions. I sometimes turn the picture frame with a photo of us face down to avoid crying... He surprised me with it on Valentine's Day with a box of chocolate. 

     So do I believe now? I can't say yes or no because I simply don't know anymore.